tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-118248632024-03-13T10:54:28.976-04:00Eureka!Analogies are as useful as a pair of glasses are to a blind man.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger688125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-86045252413561139922018-07-01T22:21:00.001-04:002018-07-01T22:21:38.520-04:00Breathless<p dir="ltr">This heat takes my breath away.</p>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-44928813270736438112018-05-08T21:58:00.001-04:002018-05-08T21:58:49.653-04:00Feeding my soul in springtime<p dir="ltr">Day by day, hour by hour, act by act, slowly, slowly I work to build meaning into my existence, to draw open ever wider the dark, heavy, velvety curtains to reveal the why the how and the universe and the way to move through it without setting fire to it or collapsing under the weight of its skyscrapers and cathedrals. I am both alone and never alone. The hour is mine to fill as I please, I am the designer of my days, as a single woman of the 21st century in the free world, I am rich in the currency of time, which is directly correlated with greater uncertainty of futures, which is unnerving because in the end there are two certainties which we cannot bend: the linear unidirectional nature of time as we experience it, and the endpoint of that line. Therefore these bricks laid and decisions made or not yet made to what end? A house, a mansion? A labyrinthian city whose roads run off the grid? A house-like structure glued to a paper plate covered haphazardly with candies and left to gather dust for a decade, or two? An unfinished pile of rocks? A stonehenge, a Venus? Who will love these attempts at building? Hungrily yet methodically without knowing what for, I forage through spring trees and painted deserts, through the words, stories, equations and formulas discovered by others, through the workings of my own skeletomusculature, through the innocence of babies to sustain myself. I am often hungry but have high hopes of finding a rhythm of feeding. A regularity in my days.</p>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-34086077988571722592018-01-24T02:22:00.001-05:002018-01-24T02:22:59.547-05:00A Dancer's Confession<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I am so grateful for gravity and the Newtonian forces which, in a decadent exchange between Earth and I (the ultimate dance partnership), can ripple through my body, and send it bounding, teetering, flying, flowing. I am grateful for the inextricably entwined relationship between body and mind that binds me- us- to the Earth no matter how far we attempt to distance ourselves from our origin and being with our philosophies and religions. I am not separate from my container. It defines me, without it, I am not me, I am something else altogether, not just water turned from liquid to a gaseous state. It is a treasure, a source of pain and frustration often, a source of ecstacy at times. Ultimately, a tragedy. Once my spirit has gone from my body, I know that I will never exist as I know myself to exist in this unique form, ever again. The body will be an empty thing, not just a lifeless me, and the spirit, like a flame will have extinguished without the body to keep it burning bright. My dual form stamps my existence with a pronounced finiteness. It is both an emprisonment and a conduit to freedom and flight, a conduit for communing with forces beyond the typical senses and most magical of all-with the wonder of music. The music drives the body, the body communicates the music, the result is a momentary liberation of the mind. I cannot explain.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-12276986961856430512017-12-03T01:00:00.001-05:002017-12-03T01:00:52.157-05:00Dance in Space?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Can you dance in outer space? Isn't dance ultimately the weighted body playing with gravity? Did outer space just become more boring? But aliens, you say?</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-75044386949529658702017-10-11T01:34:00.002-04:002017-10-11T01:34:58.975-04:00Perspective Shifts<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Perspective is fascinating. You can be utterly disinterested or even dislike a thing as long as you've known of it, and then one day you'll see or experience it in a particular context at a certain point in your own evolution, and suddenly it becomes meaningful, utterly captivating, and you understand it completely. Like olives. I hated olives all my life, and suddenly when I encounter them in a jar swimming in olive oil and feta cheese, eaten with flatbread baked fresh off the streets of the middle east- olives are suddenly delicious and I crave them. Now whenever I think I don't like something, I remember olives. Perspective shifts take time and mental effort, and some of the best things in life take several tries and considerations. Like cheese and coffee. Cheese is a weird food, but once you get on that train, it's like moldy stinky heaven for life.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-49102979420395431842017-08-30T00:43:00.000-04:002017-08-30T00:54:04.031-04:00Mechanics of Motion<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The mechanics of shoulder blades followed by the mechanics of pachanga. So interesting how dance can be broken down into springs, pulleys, and Newton's third law. What is particularly beautiful about our mechanics of motion is the amount of spiraling and rotation that takes place within our skeletomuscular frame. I am just discovering this.<br />
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Dance is more than mechanics, though: it is a harmonious marriage of mechanics and music, where the former is the how, and the latter is the why- and the result is either joy or endorphins.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-5070126161885949472017-08-02T23:29:00.001-04:002017-08-02T23:29:53.640-04:00Gaga and Salsa<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Tonight: Gaga method and salsa on2 (both done in jeggings). When I took a gaga class 2 years ago, I felt mildly awakened into a freer more abstract way of moving compared to what I was used to. Tonight, in my second gaga class, I felt alive, powerful, sure of myself- really free. Something has changed. Have you ever stretched upward so far beyond yourself that your breath quickens as if gasping for air while treading deep waters? But in an ecstatic way, as if about to burst with the overflow of life in your chest. I didn't know the physical body was capable of producing such a mental state. And salsa...who knew? I'm getting that there's good solid transferrable technique to this fast, flashy, hip-swaggery. Beyond the technique, it is liberating to move quickly with less deliberation of each micro-movement. Also, I think I'm now an on2 snob. Tomorrow- Los Angeles. Beverly Hills. Cafe stuff. And hopefully, dance.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-15684866847392800072017-06-15T00:50:00.001-04:002017-06-15T00:50:36.720-04:00Fanciful Nights<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I love summer nights sleeping accompanied by the whirring of a fan. A gateway to all the summers past. Gentle, soothing, mechanical lullaby.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-48227412573411955132017-04-24T16:56:00.000-04:002017-04-24T16:59:54.621-04:00For Who For What<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I toss away behind me on either side of me the notion that I must create for appearances, money, or fame-- for others, in other words. I reacquire the desire to do the things I do because I simply want to. To create for myself and myself only. To sing for myself and myself only.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-80905561288593019462017-04-12T00:10:00.001-04:002017-04-12T00:14:36.644-04:00Rumba Essentials<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Love the sound of the first beats of the claves and congas as you sink into your body. Takes me back to the place with the palm trees.<br />
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In rumba and other afrocuban dances, knee bends are your metronome. And they always bend down. Never straighten the knees.<br />
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The hip reacts to the bend of the knee in threes.<br />
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The front forearm is affirmatively placed across the body, out and in. Tossing the scarf out and bringing it back in. The crossing brings the arms out of the body to the side of it, as if opening to the side.<br />
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The two feet subtly open in the same direction, together, as one.<br />
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The shoulders circle vertically and from under in opposition to each other, especially in initiation of a step.<br />
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Before any step is taken, lengthen the neck, loosen the shoulders as the claves and congas sound. Feel the circularity in the shoulder girdle.<br />
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Do not run. Listen to the music.<br />
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Orishas today was San Lazaro featuring the clock-like bounce of the knees.<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-24260303819838130012017-03-07T08:32:00.000-05:002017-03-07T10:40:01.907-05:00The Earth and I<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The earth is my friend<br />
my sun, my source<br />
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I respond<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-22546579066774607702017-03-01T22:27:00.002-05:002017-03-02T00:27:41.222-05:00Reflection On My Current State of Dance<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I was a ballet-only girl for 6 years. Then a year and change ago, another dance stole my heart-Cuban modern technique. But instead of drawing me away forever from my first love, I find that I am falling in love with ballet all over again, with a greater respect and deeper appreciation for it exactly because of the way it contrasts to modern, contemporary and other styles of dance. Moreover, Cuban modern technique has opened the way for me to actually understand how to dance ballet better. Partly by inspiring me to take interest in a myriad of other dance forms. And albeit sometimes I add too much flourish to my arabesque instead of staying true to square ballet form. I am reminded of those math problems where to solve a problem in the real-numbered world, sometimes you have to go through the complex (imaginary) realm to get to the real-numbered solution. I was also a math nerd in the past, before the dancing years.<br />
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There is a lot of that- going through an alternate path to get from simple A to B. For instance, quite often in the study of dance, you get the physical result you want by going through the imaginary channel; by visualizing and the use of imagery and metaphor, you make your body do what it is physically supposed to do (per your own will or intention). The mind and body are intimately linked. Just as how in language, metaphor and imagery are connective channels or tools used to generate cognitive understanding whether within oneself or between two or more people, in dance, too, they are tools used to generate understanding between the mind and the body. After all, dance is itself a language so it is reasonable that it would function under the same laws and patterns of behavior and evolution.<br />
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A somewhat related phenomenon is when you create a physical effect with your body by only giving the intention of doing the perceived effect, but not actually doing it fully. A holding back of energy of sorts, for the full energy would actually overburden and thus work against the result you want, toppling it over in a manner of speaking. In this type of situation, the mind's intention of an act generates the full physical act. Intention becomes a powerful tool in dance.<br />
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Sometimes you teach your body to access the intended physical result by going through the imagination, and then once the feel of it is achieved and experienced, you can go back and access the same feel or result by pure anatomical awareness and reasoning. Often to attempt to do the latter first fails to produce the desired result because well, simply the body is complex, and forces and energy are unseen but very much a part of human movement. Both knowledge of anatomy, physiology and physics, as well as the imagination are required to learn how to dance. Dance is very much like the world of complex numbers: one part real and one part imaginary, or as we say in the world of numbers: A+Bi.<br />
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The discovery and study of Cuban dance (Cuban modern, rumba, Orishas) has been akin to the discovery of non-Euclidean geometry, where the shortest distance between two points is no longer a straight line but a curve. Prior to the Cuban dances, dance for me was very linear and angular. What makes Cuban dance so mezmerizing and difficult to pinpoint is its basis in circular movement. Once this is understood, the origin of their movements and the movements themselves become clear (or clearer).<br />
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The goal in studying the minutiae of dance in all its variants, for me, has always been to get closer and closer to the truth- the way of moving with absolute ease and freedom; with minimal, targeted energy expended; with the least amount of pain or damage inflicted on the instrument; and with the ability to adapt to different styles. Ideal movement of the human body should supercede style.<br />
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...Going back to origin, ballet for me is...classic...romantic...lofty...In daily practice sans makeup and acting, but with all the rigors of repetition at the barre, it carries a sort of Spartan grace. Stoic and militant, but simultaneously expressive in an unearthly way. It is the opposite of earthy; it is not of this world. If you can move gracefully and expressively within such strict boundaries of squareness, uprightness, and centeredness, then you can most certainly move out of squareness, with a curved or bent spine, and out of center. As one of my teachers told me, you must know Center to move out of Center. Said another way, you must have control to lose control.<br />
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It is very nice and a little strange that such a lovely thing as a ballet class can take place when the country seems on the brink of self-destruction. Then again, there have been worse things. How to find freedom within a rigid structure- is the ultimate quest of this dance.</div>
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The road to hell is paved with jokes.<br />
Think twice before you laugh.<br />
To laugh is to give your approval.<br />
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Language creeps into layers between layers.<br />
Into thought and belief which every use compounds.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-82487843410450850882016-11-09T02:01:00.000-05:002016-11-09T02:01:08.244-05:00Election Result<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My fellow women, as the 2016 election results become basically clear, I have to confess that I feel angry at all men everywhere right now. Not at any individual man who is as good as can be, but at the general maleness that pervades our daily lives and our very existence, and pervades so deeply that it is like original sin. If you are male, you are born guilty. I know this is irrational but this is my confession as the die is cast. </div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-27508731367988386812016-10-09T01:11:00.001-04:002016-10-09T01:11:37.848-04:00Falling in Love with Rumba<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Following an evening of classes in Afro-Caribbean dance forms, I find myself increasingly intrigued by the forms of movement that emerge from combining the earthly, undulating, percussive nature of African dance with Caribbean joyfulness and pelvis-centric sensuality. The inherent joyfulness of rumba is weighted with sadness because more emphatically than any other dance I have experienced, this one is used as a means of forgetting. On the other hand, its music contains age-old stories, so the dance that expresses it is also a means of remembering. It is a dance that liberates the body in its entirety and puts the mind in a happy trance. The steps are weighted but not harsh or aggressive; rather the foot plays with the ground, massaging it and making it pliable, the rigid earth. The earth receives and sends back this plied energy which ripples through the torso and out the arms- suave, always suave.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-1752431830749079912016-09-23T23:24:00.001-04:002016-09-23T23:24:03.436-04:00Reclaiming the Day<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
This evening around 5:30pm, I was deep in the trenches at work, with a million tasks to follow up on for multiple cafe openings. And then I got a call from my aunt in Korea. By the time I got off the phone, I realized I really only had one task to complete, and that was to leave work and enjoy the rest of the day. So I did. After completing a couple extra tasks. How we leave this life is not our choice to make, whether quick or prolonged, peaceful or painful. The most we can do is reclaim the day.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-84065390738776346772016-08-31T01:16:00.000-04:002016-08-31T01:43:05.046-04:00Efficiency<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Modern life in the developed world renders my survival instinct lazy and out of practice, so that it is at risk of being shocked when things do not happen with maximum efficiency. In times like these I remind myself that efficiency in daily life is an artificial construct. Rather, I should expect the hunt and chase, and marvel when the game walks right into my hands.<br />
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On this beautiful summer's night, I walked the South Street Bridge home, turning into the Schuylkill riverwalk. My mind and body were still resonating with the rumba and Afro-Cuban folkloric beats. I saw my shadow cast onto the boardwalk and made it dance with me. We quite literally danced our way home. I felt close to the stars.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-55537224975045082052016-06-15T01:52:00.001-04:002016-06-15T02:17:25.909-04:00An Ode to Current Affairs<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.32px;">Fuck free speech, and yes to chemical castration. Cut out his tongue and cut off his balls. Tie them up naked on either side of a pole stuck into an ant hill. Justice is a snap. What's the big deal? 49 people dead. The one constant in our lives it seems has been mass shootings and bombings. Terrorism begins from home turf. Let us look inward before we look outward. Idiot with bad hair given a megaphone. How does he still have friends? The rich will serve the rich. The ignoramus will worship the brash and hollow rhetoric.</span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-34429141293648393712015-12-01T23:09:00.000-05:002015-12-01T23:09:04.283-05:00Cool down, Warm up<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 17.5636px;">My dinner is getting cold because I got my hips hooked on the salsa beats. Warming them up for some good times ahead.</span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-49313917114181400592015-11-14T19:45:00.001-05:002015-11-14T19:45:54.382-05:00Speaking in Centuries<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's been a quarter of a century since 1990. Take that, perspective.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-43956468423346873262015-10-30T20:11:00.003-04:002015-10-30T20:11:35.941-04:00Reminder<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Want nothing; absorb everything.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-21523608424276070112015-06-28T14:57:00.000-04:002017-07-02T15:00:20.841-04:00Modern Sounds<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's 6 in the morning, and pouring rain, but the sky is light. Its soft white-gray hue lights up my curtains. The sound of the rain beating like pebbles against the balcony floor makes me think I might be in a tent in the middle of Jersey, or back home in the Pacific Northwest- or in the middle of a rainforest that Philly once must have been eons ago, like when brontosauri were still roaming the Earth munching on trees. As the day breaks and the minutes move forward, the rain slows to a silence and is surpassed by the sound of cars speeding by below over the wet roads, of car doors slamming shut, and of birds chirping and human voices calling. The roar of the brontosaurus becomes the groaning and heaving of the Septa bus and garbage trucks. Modern Sounds.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11824863.post-27836598980185749772015-01-13T23:31:00.000-05:002015-10-29T23:32:54.875-04:00The Shark Devours the Seal in One Fell Swoop<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13.696px;">To have the opportunity to say goodbye and prepare for a death is, I see now, an opportunity that exceeds expectations. In real life, according to the ways and whims of Mother Nature, death happens in an unplanned instant and is devoid of the sense of justice or retribution. It is not required to explain itself. It is not required to make sense, to forewarn or be gentle. Simply, it is a part of the system of life in which what comes must go. Life goes on. Screams are swallowed by the stars. From here on, survival is predicated on acceptance. However, what is accepted is not the death itself, but rather the sense of loss which becomes a part of the survivor's being.</span></div>
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